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Answers to Mitchel

I'ts a hardknock life

Mostly - but not always right?
Sometimes it's a life of pure joy, or beauty or appreciation, sometimes it's a hard work, or hard thinking, simple pain or just struggle being.
Mark the moments when it changes. See how long the changes last. How fleeting seem the wondrous moments, how lasting the ones we wish to move on swiftly.
How every feeling, every moment, continues moving and then changes.
As they say; Life is a journey rather than a destination.


Feeling lonely is a motherfucker

Remember that there is a huge difference between loneliness and being alone. We can change the former into the latter by acts of will. A L O N E

Lonely is to be isolated from others with a wish or desire for company. Alone is the objective fact of being by oneself

AL(L) O N E - one unto oneself
Our most creative moments, our deepest learning, greatest realisations occur only when alone. The loneliest you will ever be is with people who don't see you or treat you as you would wish.


Ik wil verhuizen naar een andere dimensie  I want to move to another dimension.
This is realtively easy to do. Our mind is powerful enough to take us to almost anywhere, anytime. By decreasing our brainwaves to an aplpha beta or theta state




Beta (12-30Hz):  normal waking consciousness, a heightened state of alertness, logic and critical reasoning. Daily activities are at Beta it is important for effective functioning in everyday life, yet higher Beta levels become restlessness , stress and anxiety. Adults primarily operate in Beta which explains that stress is today's most common health problem. The voice of Beta is the nagging, inner critic, becoming louder and more relentless the higher you go in the range.

Alpha (7.5-12Hz): Deep relaxation usually with closed eyes and day-dreaming. The relaxed detached awareness of light meditation characteristic of Alpha is optimal for programming your mind for success. Alpha heightens your imagination, visualization, memory, learning and concentration. It is the base of conscious awareness, the gateway to your subconscious mind. The  Silva Method by Jose Silva uses the power of Alpha. The voice of Alpha is your intuition, which becomes clearer and more profound the closer you get to 7.5Hz.

Theta (4-7.5Hz): Deep meditation and light sleep, including the REM dream state. The realm of your subconscious mind. Known as the twilight state and usually momentarily experienced falling in sleep (from Alpha) and waking from deep sleep (Delta). A sense of deep spiritual connection, oneness with the Universe may be experienced in Theta. Vivid visualizations, great inspiration, profound creativity, exceptional insight, your mind's most deeply-seated programs are all here. The voice of Theta is silence.

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Delta (0.5-4Hz): The slowest wave present in deep, dreamless sleep or very deep, transcendental meditation where awareness is completely detached. Delta is the realm of your unconscious mind. It is the gateway to the Universal mind and the collective unconscious whereby information received is otherwise unavailable at the conscious level. Delta is associated with deep healing and regeneration, underlining the importance of deep sleep to the healing process.


Het maakt het lastig om je vertrouwen in iemand te zetten, als je zelf degene bent met trust issues. Dus voordat je kan denken van ja man ik vertrouw diegene, moet je eerst nog nagaan of je jezelf wel vertrouwt om iemand te vertrouwen.
Life is complicated.

Learning to trust. What is it that you think you need to learn? Sometimes our trust is misplaced, sometimes we don't know how to choose the criteria on which to base our trust. Trusting in ourselves ultimately is our only choice in terms of being capable of moving forward. This is a process of falling down and just knowing you have to get up again.


Als je die shit echt kan geloven, als je het echt kan zien, jij weet dat wat je van plan bent gaat lukken.

You've cracked it this is the ultimate secret to a happy life indeed! Believing, removing doubts from your mind as they spring up. Cultivating the feeling of 'knowing' that your plans will certainly come to fruition ensures that they do.


Dit is mijn mindstate, al een tijdje lang, ik kan echt zeggen dat ik fokking veel lessen heb geleerd. Ik ben blij met de mensen die ik ken en de mensen die ik beter heb leren kennen.
Sommige van jullie weten van de demons die ik draag, ik ben graag open daarover, want anders gaat het me achtervolgen in manieren die ik niet kan handelen.
Zolang ik mijn fouten/demons erken en eerlijk blijf, en op mijn weg ben om ze fully te shaken, zolang ik dat doe kan ik zeggen dat ik een goed hart heb.
Ik heb genoeg gehad van drama, van loneliness.. zie dit als een kleine PSA, i been depressed and still am. Ik vind het lastig om hierover te praten, maar ik moet toegeven dat het goed voelt om het te delen..
Ik wens iedereen succes in 2018, ook al zijn we bijna mid year, shit is real out here.
Als je love voor me hebt doe dan een klein gebedje voor me, als je deze shit een hartje geeft dan doe ik ook een gebedje voor jou.
i ain't religious like that, maar ik geloof wel dat het echt helpt, FUCK the people that judge and think you won't or thought you wouldn't achieve nothing!
Peace out.

I hope it's OK for me to address this post which has so many contradictions. Your mind set is that you are happy with the people you know and have learnt to know better. But clearly there are people that you know who judge you, bring drama in your life and engender a feeling of isolation.

There are many more reasons to believe in the goodness of ones heart. Not only owning our mistakes and battling our demons – sometimes it is about carrying the demons, seeing them, owning how they got to be there, hearing their voices, yet able to make other choices. In ND Buddhism demons are our own internal forces or fundamental darkness that set up challenges to us connecting with our inner Buddha(nature).

Owning all that we are; the dark, the light, the indifferent, seeing ourselves as the complete, multifaceted creatures that we are and knowing that it is 'all good' is the challenge. Making mistakes is the quickest way to grow, when we can see the 'mistakes' as indicators rather than judgements, condemnations or sentencing. Shaking our demons isn't necessarily helpful or positive, it is a dream of being something that we are possibly not i.e. perfect and if perfection exists we are it already.

As you yourself say talking about stuff is a really good way to get a handle on it. Not talking about our feelings isn't helpful. People who can't won't don't talk about their feelings are usually not very keen on others doing so – that is their issue, not yours. Sharing can't kill you, if people try to cause you pain through the things you share, it is only an indication of how tiny their Buddha nature is, how much potential it has to grow...

People would do well to pray for each other – send positive hopes and wishes – everyday. People would do very well to earnestly pray for the happiness of all the people they don't love.

The meaning of the word religion when you take it back to it's components is to reconnect. It could be described as 'tying ourselves once more to something greater than we perceive (ourselves to be)'.

Mensen houden er van om je pijn te doen, door je te verlaten, zonder dat je de woorden hebt kunnen zeggen die jou perspectief vormt.. i thought so much more

Actually no. While psychopaths and socio-paths made indeed enjoy inflicting pain, people in general are not thinking about you. They are making choices for themselves. They are informing their own lives. Your pain at what they say or do, your feeling of being abandoned are your feelings about them doing what they have decided is best or most desirable for their lives. Maybe that is leaving you, maybe it's not listening to your perspective. Maybe deciding not to listen to your view is what they most need in that moment.

and if I may be so unkind. You didn't 'think so much more' you expected it. Expectations almost invariably lead to disappointment. The major difficulty in life is schooling ourselves to release expectations of others and to focus on the choices that we make in the moment. Trusting that the universe is basically benign is challenging but only when we operate from that point of view can we begin to build and create happiness.

The universe will give you what you ask of it. Your thoughts are it's key pad. When you think in negatives, impossibilities, disapointments, expectations, wanting, resentments, regrets the universe will serve you more of the same so you need to think in positive questions:
What could be the loving lesson under this experience?
Everythink is possible - I can and will make the impossible possible
If it didn't/doesn't go well - Oh dear, never mind, what's next?
What is my greatest dream, my deepest desire?

Indeed
Peace out!